Time to change.

Just realized that I have not been as humble as compared to average people. Got to know it from friends. I think I lack of self awareness. This actually leads to another weakness of mine: lack of manners, particularly in communicating to colleagues as well as my small boss.

Today my small boss whacked me in my face by telling me off when they are giving me feedback on my corporate presentation to client this morning. It is due to some of the terms / words used not proper in some context. Lol, I didn't know it can be so damaging. Need to put this into my resolution already as it can be really penalizing in my career line.

On the other hand, one of my friends just commented that the way I speak is like wanting to argue. I guess this is one of the weaknesses being an enfj (I notice this behavior in my other enfj friend too, honestly if my friend does not point out I would have never realized it). I don't think this is going to work out considering that I often meet clients. Really need to nail this. But, just FYI, I really do enjoy speaking with the enfj friend of mine, entp works well with me too.

To stay focus

I can't stress how important is it to be able to stay focus. It has been my biggest weakness and till now I have yet to find any remedy for it. I will really pay for the remedy if there is any in the market. It is hindering my performance at work and studies.

Been reading a lot on men's health magazine lately and I love most of the contents posted really.

Will try to practice the step mentioned in the article below.

http://news.menshealth.com/defeat-distraction/2013/04/12/

Stress

Just a lot of issues arise lately, half financial issues, other half work issues.

Financial issues, despite having increment, passive expenses increase 3 folds. Need to drop the idea of getting a house at this moment. Also just spoke to insurance agent to temporarily reduce my insurance coverage, pending to increase back in Jan 2014. Plus, worse thing is that I damaged company laptop, need to compensate in full. 2k gone. Yeah you may think that I did not argue but as per company policy, just can't so much. I argued with the middle management but not helpful because big boss is always right. No point arguing to risk my career.

On the work part, dam a lot of work. I hardly go to gym during weekdays. Good thing is that I feel good learning. Bad thing is that I need to refrained from outings.

Work and financial issues also involved, I am not sure if I have communicated with you guys about 'detrimental' program that each employee will need to be bind with it. It is called staff entertainment pool fund. Whereby, each employee contributes to this fund if they make mistakes in their job, or being rewarded if they have done good job. Since the day I joined, I have never contributed, the only person from the investment team never contributed to this fund. But this month, I am contributing 400 plus into this fund. What a pain.

But the fund goes back to the employees, by the way of spending lunches, trips etc. Current status of the fund is about 22k. Shocked right? Yeah, our middle management contributed hell a lot. But it is accumulated since the establishment of the fund la.