There are things which is out of our control really. Our smartness could only save us occasionally but not always.
I'm waiting for the Jockey to remove the car which blocked my car.
Actually what I wanted to say is that my grandma had been diagnosed with cancer. This feeling sucks. In the 25 years in my life I have never experience losing someone so important. She has only a few months of life (in which she didn't know the fact that she has cancer).
I broke down emotionally when I heard this news on a Thursday night (the past Thursday) and I kept thinking how I should treasure my time with her. How else should I do to make her feel happy?
She is someone who is so kind to take care of other people before herself, and this has been consistent throughout her life. I have never seen someone so selfless. Everyday she has been thinking if we have taken meal etc. She just never gave up asking that. All she wants in her life is to see us being happy. She does not have a goal for herself, you know, like typical traditional Chinese whereby the female responsibility is to take care of the family only. This pure kindness implanted into her principle in life.
That's her greatest strength, but also greatest weakness too. She does not know how to take care of herself properly. When she is in pain, she will hide it from other people because she knows that she is going to incur huge expense for going to the hospital. What a joke...... Too bad that she does not have insurance.
How dear is dear? I was always given slightly extra attention from her because she raised me up since I was born, from feeding me to take me home from school. Plus the fact that I am her eldest grandson. This bond is so strong that I am so afraid to lose her.
My mistake. I have not been a very good grandson. I did not cook for her, nor stay home to really sit down and watch drama with her. I am always in my room doing things which deemed to be unnecessary. The most I have done is to have meal with her everyday, which I think it is insufficient. Right now it is even harder for me to spend time with her due to my workload. Mon to Fri I work overtime and I will be home late; Sat and Sun I have classes from 9 am to 5 pm until June 2013. I think I have got to work within this limitation. She might not live until June.
Her wish for me to hope that I can get married before leaving this world. Man this is challenging. I am not that kind of people who will want to get married young (I dont even have a gf now). So I often remind her to live longer so that she can see that day coming.
My mistake. I have not been a very good grandson. I did not cook for her, nor stay home to really sit down and watch drama with her. I am always in my room doing things which deemed to be unnecessary. The most I have done is to have meal with her everyday, which I think it is insufficient. Right now it is even harder for me to spend time with her due to my workload. Mon to Fri I work overtime and I will be home late; Sat and Sun I have classes from 9 am to 5 pm until June 2013. I think I have got to work within this limitation. She might not live until June.
Her wish for me to hope that I can get married before leaving this world. Man this is challenging. I am not that kind of people who will want to get married young (I dont even have a gf now). So I often remind her to live longer so that she can see that day coming.
How would you feel if you see someone like this leaving you soon?
