Ford Fiesta
Finally, there will be a Ford Fiesta in my house in the next one or two days. Unfortunately, I am not the owner of the car, but my brother is because it is a white Fiesta, not blue.
Things did not turn out as it was expected. The blue was supposed to be out first, and then followed by the white a month or two later. The white was in stock before the blue (which still in the waiting list) so my father asks if I could let my brother to take it first. When I heard about this news, I was terribly sad and disappointed. It is really not because I want to have it earlier than my brother, it is because the fact that I will need to wait a lot longer than expected (which to-date I have already waited for like 3 months). I am speculating that I will only have my own car in early September as the number tender results will be out, and that’s the EARLIEST date that I will first drive my car. If it failed to get the number desired (1818), it is going to drive my emotional level down again.
I am sad because of the waiting time. I think that I am obsessed with the car that I am going to get. Because:
1. I think about it every night before I fall asleep.
2. I talk about it every SINGLE time when I hangout with friends, telling them that I don’t know how long more I will need to wait.
3. Printed a portion of the owner’s manual (U.S. Edition though, because Malaysia’s Fiesta owner’s manual is not available online), and read through it.
4. Did online research about it (pros and cons) and watched numerous youtube videos about it whenever I am in cyber café. FYI, I rarely watch youtube videos unless someone shows it to me.
5. When I am playing DOTA, I often name my character “Ford Fiesta”.
6. I often think that I want to drive my little Fiesta on the first day of my real job in my life, now it is no longer possible.
7. Whenever I am on the road, I will ALWAYS look around for Fiestas. And then, high possibilities that I will tail gate it. When I do see one, I often feel excited.
8. My best friend is coming back from the US next Friday for vacation for about a month. I hope to drive my little Fiesta on a trip with her and my gang of friends.
9. I had estimated that I might receive it around end of July which is the best time to receive it because I will get to know my CFA result that is coming out on the 26th. If I fail again, my Fiesta will help me to ease my pain. If I pass, it will then become my present for my hard work.
10. I have even bought some accessories and decorating items for it, though some of them were given by my close friends from Drake.
11. I was asking friends on how to enhance the quality of the sound system of Fiesta. Did research and have estimated a budget for it. (Fiesta quality of sound is not that great, but its 6 speakers would make modification easier as I do not need to purchase more speakers but only tweeters, amplifier and bass blocker.
I think these 11 mutually exclusive reasons are good enough to make me wanting to get it as soon as possible.
When I received the news, I was so heart broken and wanting to find ways to blame some people. But there is no one to be blamed. This is really one of the major weaknesses of getting a car in Malaysia because you will not know when you will get it and the sales person does not have the ability to keep track of it. You would be lucky to get it earlier than expected, or else need to wait much longer than the waiting period given by the sales person.
It is a little more complicated in my case of getting a car as it involves tendering the number as mentioned in my post earlier. If tendering was unsuccessful, we will have to wait for another month to tender again. Of course there is an option of getting a randomly generated number and that will allow you to take the number home immediately, but my father and I only want to get a special number 1818. My father said normally tender number would only be successful after second or third trial because certain time some other people will bid higher price as this number is special to most Chinese in Malaysia (high in demand). How should I bet on it that I am getting it on the first trial? It really sucks when I really think about it.
There is a relative of mine who currently works in Ford as director. He told me that he is able to do some tricks to push my car to top of the waiting list, currently I am at number 6. It is pointless to get the car so soon because without the number, I would not bring it on the road. Sad right?
Knowing this, I tend to channel the blame to other people even though I know it is not right. I came to think that it might be the sales person fault as he should arrange it properly so that the one who booked it first gets it. On the other hand, I also did think that it is my father’s responsibility as he did not urge or push the sales person simply because he is not spending money for himself but me. I know it is all wrong thinking but I seriously could not help thinking like that.
I am not able to open up my mind and think through this problem because I could not accept this fact as it is not in my calculation. My mum even said that I should be able to have a better mind to think through it as I have exposed to a foreign place which typically enhances one’s thinking process. In many cases I am good at it, but there is an exception for this case.
My mum asked me to keep my phone on as the sales person might call me anytime to pick it up just in case my brother is not free (either tomorrow or Saturday). My brother also text me and ask if I know a cheaper place to tint the car and wanting me to inform him about the time of the pick up. There is nothing wrong for them to ask me in this manner, but I would think that they are not taking care about my feelings. My irrational mind kicks in and thinks that they should be more thoughtful of my feelings. Don’t ask me to pick up something that does not belong to me and don’t ask me how much to tint the car and what time should we pick it up. Basically, it is about the wrong timing and my irrational behavior.
When you read it, it may sounds like I am a spoiled kid. But it is not the case. It is really caused by my level of obsession towards it. It seemed that I need to find ways to counter this obsession. One method is to treat my brother old car as my car (he will be driving his new Fiesta so he will not need his current car, Perodua Myvi). The ONLY good thing about him getting his car first is that I have freedom to go out anytime I want with Myvi.
If you think that if he lets me drive his car occasionally could solve the problem, then you are wrong. Even though we are getting the same car, but there is a HUGE difference between owning a car and using a car of any family member. I dare say that this difference is huge because honestly I have been driving better cars like Mercedes E and Honda Civic but there is still lack of a feeling that that car belongs to you.
Right now my level of obsession has eased. To all readers out there, please don’t get obsessed over anything because all of the bad side of the behaviors will start taking over you.
