These are the stickers which I was referring to in my previous post.
Friday, July 5
Thursday, July 4
Turned from Worst to Fulfulling
Hello all,
Literally, this week is by far the worst week ever so far in 2013. And I am sure the weeks ahead coming towards the end of 2013 will not be as worse as this week.
In summary, I have learned many things the hard way. And I think this time really hits me badly.
The arrangement below following the timeline of the event.
Monday, I accidentally poured my cup of water onto my work laptop, resulting it being malfunctioning. As I poured on it, immediately I shut down the laptop (yes, all keys are still working perfectly fine). I did not turn it on after that. After awhile, I brought it to the gym which I have just recently signed up for because I need hair dryers in attempt to clean the water inside. So I used like 2 hair dryers at the same time to blow the sides of the laptop. I just left the hair dryers on the table blowing the laptop while I am just browsing facebook with my smartphone. Suddenly, something flew out from the laptop and I thought it was a just a sticker, so I did not bother it. Then after awhile more, more "stickers" flying out and I began to worry. Immediately, I turned my attention to my laptop and I realized those "stickers" were actually "keyboard buttons". I was like OmG! The buttons all partially melted by the heat from the hair dryer! I was like, I am in deep shit already. Immediately I brought the heated laptop back to office and placed it under direct air from the air con. After about an hour, it could not start. So my mind was like calculating things which I need to do to replace the laptop for the company.
Tuesday, I picked up my boss from his place when I was on my way to work. During the jam, we were actually doing appraisals for my performance. Of course I knew that I did not do a good job this year and I kept focusing talking about my weaknesses and how I should overcome them. This conversation was more on my input and he is just giving some feedback. And that is totally cool because I know my weaknesses are huge hindrance to my future career. The story up until now for today has got nothing to do with my salary increment, just FYI because I want to talk about the salary increment experience I had.
For the increment topic, it was held another time in the same day because we did not have sufficient time. So he asked me this question: "How much do you want for increment? You can say whatever amount but I may not necessary agree with it." I made a terrible mistake by giving him a "range" of amount where he just wanted "an" amount. I have him a range from X to Y, and he gave me X! This issue made me feel so bad. Because there are a lot of what ifs. If I said X only and he has given me X, I will be totally fine. But he gave me the lowest range which I asked for. And if you think I could go back to him on this issue then you are totally wrong. He is a lawyer, one of the top ones in his time, so he is always very careful when he is conversing with people. So now when I go back to him to ask for more, he will say "You are the one who asked for it and now you are not happy? etc etc" But its okay though, I think the increment is good enough. Plus it is a half yearly appraisal. I learned from this mistake and I will ask for more next time since there is no obligation, and I will only specify an amount only instead of giving a range.
On Wednesday, the most emo time for me because as a result of the appraisals, two of my colleagues got promoted to Senior Analyst. Three of us were in the same rank, and both of them joined the company about the same time as I did (one and two months earlier respectively). This is one of the days where I remained quiet all day and did not want to socialize. I am depressed because of the fact that they got promoted and I did not. Don't get me wrong. Actually I never expect that I will get promoted because I don't think I am qualified at all. And I am not surprised that I am not promoted. But the fact that among the three of us, I am the most incompetent. This challenges my ego a lot. Yes I was sad the day it happened, but after that I feel so much better because I know that I needed to be hit hard in my face so that I can have more motivation to climb harder. My boss made a good decision by not promoting me because I feel that there is a certain standard I could meet before I get promoted, and I love the challenge. All the while I wanted to put more effort into my work but I have not been committing much. I guess this downfall really hits me hard this time and I so want to contribute to learn more about work. Hey, it is about prospect which I can learn because it is going to be helpful in my career next time. I love the learning opportunity given in my job. The next appraisal is just 6 months away and I will definitely aim to get promoted then.
On yeah, on the same day, I managed to turn on my company laptop and it is still functioning as if it did not spoil. The speed to load the operating system is okay. But the only visible damage other than the missing keyboard buttons, the screen has water mark in it. The admin sent it to repair already. So the good news is that I dont need to pay for the full amount to replace the laptop but only the fee incurred to fix the existing problem.
Today, Thursday, I have a lot to do but I have not been able to manage my time properly, and this issue has been outstanding for quite some time. Resulting my sifu at work got pissed of at me. After this two hours conversation with her, it motivates me even more! I will push even harder for myself to meet the career objectives.
This is why I said I managed to turn from worst to good. (the laptop case is just lucky)
I hope to see a new me soon. The only difference is that the new me and the current me is only on the career focusing issue, while the rest remain untouched. Really need to spend more time, especially during the weekends, to gain a deeper understanding on the projects which I am doing.
Friends. I hope to have your support. And I know I always have it. I will fight hard. Life ain't easy, this term finally kicked into my belief system, and yay for that because I am going to work it out!
Literally, this week is by far the worst week ever so far in 2013. And I am sure the weeks ahead coming towards the end of 2013 will not be as worse as this week.
In summary, I have learned many things the hard way. And I think this time really hits me badly.
The arrangement below following the timeline of the event.
Monday, I accidentally poured my cup of water onto my work laptop, resulting it being malfunctioning. As I poured on it, immediately I shut down the laptop (yes, all keys are still working perfectly fine). I did not turn it on after that. After awhile, I brought it to the gym which I have just recently signed up for because I need hair dryers in attempt to clean the water inside. So I used like 2 hair dryers at the same time to blow the sides of the laptop. I just left the hair dryers on the table blowing the laptop while I am just browsing facebook with my smartphone. Suddenly, something flew out from the laptop and I thought it was a just a sticker, so I did not bother it. Then after awhile more, more "stickers" flying out and I began to worry. Immediately, I turned my attention to my laptop and I realized those "stickers" were actually "keyboard buttons". I was like OmG! The buttons all partially melted by the heat from the hair dryer! I was like, I am in deep shit already. Immediately I brought the heated laptop back to office and placed it under direct air from the air con. After about an hour, it could not start. So my mind was like calculating things which I need to do to replace the laptop for the company.
Tuesday, I picked up my boss from his place when I was on my way to work. During the jam, we were actually doing appraisals for my performance. Of course I knew that I did not do a good job this year and I kept focusing talking about my weaknesses and how I should overcome them. This conversation was more on my input and he is just giving some feedback. And that is totally cool because I know my weaknesses are huge hindrance to my future career. The story up until now for today has got nothing to do with my salary increment, just FYI because I want to talk about the salary increment experience I had.
For the increment topic, it was held another time in the same day because we did not have sufficient time. So he asked me this question: "How much do you want for increment? You can say whatever amount but I may not necessary agree with it." I made a terrible mistake by giving him a "range" of amount where he just wanted "an" amount. I have him a range from X to Y, and he gave me X! This issue made me feel so bad. Because there are a lot of what ifs. If I said X only and he has given me X, I will be totally fine. But he gave me the lowest range which I asked for. And if you think I could go back to him on this issue then you are totally wrong. He is a lawyer, one of the top ones in his time, so he is always very careful when he is conversing with people. So now when I go back to him to ask for more, he will say "You are the one who asked for it and now you are not happy? etc etc" But its okay though, I think the increment is good enough. Plus it is a half yearly appraisal. I learned from this mistake and I will ask for more next time since there is no obligation, and I will only specify an amount only instead of giving a range.
On Wednesday, the most emo time for me because as a result of the appraisals, two of my colleagues got promoted to Senior Analyst. Three of us were in the same rank, and both of them joined the company about the same time as I did (one and two months earlier respectively). This is one of the days where I remained quiet all day and did not want to socialize. I am depressed because of the fact that they got promoted and I did not. Don't get me wrong. Actually I never expect that I will get promoted because I don't think I am qualified at all. And I am not surprised that I am not promoted. But the fact that among the three of us, I am the most incompetent. This challenges my ego a lot. Yes I was sad the day it happened, but after that I feel so much better because I know that I needed to be hit hard in my face so that I can have more motivation to climb harder. My boss made a good decision by not promoting me because I feel that there is a certain standard I could meet before I get promoted, and I love the challenge. All the while I wanted to put more effort into my work but I have not been committing much. I guess this downfall really hits me hard this time and I so want to contribute to learn more about work. Hey, it is about prospect which I can learn because it is going to be helpful in my career next time. I love the learning opportunity given in my job. The next appraisal is just 6 months away and I will definitely aim to get promoted then.
On yeah, on the same day, I managed to turn on my company laptop and it is still functioning as if it did not spoil. The speed to load the operating system is okay. But the only visible damage other than the missing keyboard buttons, the screen has water mark in it. The admin sent it to repair already. So the good news is that I dont need to pay for the full amount to replace the laptop but only the fee incurred to fix the existing problem.
Today, Thursday, I have a lot to do but I have not been able to manage my time properly, and this issue has been outstanding for quite some time. Resulting my sifu at work got pissed of at me. After this two hours conversation with her, it motivates me even more! I will push even harder for myself to meet the career objectives.
This is why I said I managed to turn from worst to good. (the laptop case is just lucky)
I hope to see a new me soon. The only difference is that the new me and the current me is only on the career focusing issue, while the rest remain untouched. Really need to spend more time, especially during the weekends, to gain a deeper understanding on the projects which I am doing.
Friends. I hope to have your support. And I know I always have it. I will fight hard. Life ain't easy, this term finally kicked into my belief system, and yay for that because I am going to work it out!
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